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July 19th, 2004 at 1:33pm]
You are Bettie Page!
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Do I Have 2? [Tuesday
March 26th, 2002 at 4:38pm]
You feel like the black sheep today. Don't let this get you down, dear Scorpio. You've probably often felt this way before, even if not so much as now. But consider this: even if you don't fit readily into the mainstream, would you really want to? Yours is a distinct and exclusive personality, much to the envy of those around you (even if they don't openly say so). Cherish who you are, and value your uniqueness. Just imagine how unfamiliar it would feel, if you would be someone else!
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Peace & Quiet [Tuesday
March 26th, 2002 at 4:21pm]
I have managed to sleep for an hour so far. I got up & took a long bath. I just slowly slipped under the healing water. Zero phone calls for me so far. (which I have to admit was rather nice) I am wearing my oldest jeans & my beloved Jager shirt via Billie. A read a little bit more in my book. Had a good talk with Ms. Maunder earlier too.
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Long Evening & Long Morning [Tuesday
March 26th, 2002 at 6:01am]
Zero sleep for me so far.
Going to leave for down south on Saturday
Not coming home till the 4th.
To my friends I may not be myself for awhile
This will be a very long pained trip for me, on many levels.

Well I called Grumpy back & we completly are going over reach other's head. So yes we will clear everything up before I go. I just wished that he wasn't worried about me.
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Scope [Wednesday
March 20th, 2002 at 6:10pm]
You may find that people want to talk a great deal, but are avoiding their feelings, dear Scorpio. Today's aspect encourages you to not do the same. Don't put your emotions on the back burner, even though your feelings might interfere with the information you receive. It's just not a day where you should live in your head. After all, you are human and there is a body, a mind and a soul. This threesome should be equally valued and used. The only thing to watch out for is to be conscious of the impact of your words.
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Dream [Wednesday
March 20th, 2002 at 12:42pm]
I dream of a touch
that caresses with such,
such passion my skin burns.
Those close heated moments keep
me alive inside
no emotion left for me to hide.
It's all a dream it all can be true
it all can happen, with my you.
You leave at night with me wanting more
lusting your kiss
lusting for your lips! Be connected sweetly with mine.
Your body drapping massively over me
I can see you now
my darling, my you.
When will you be here with me next?
How long do I wait--should I even wait at all.
Through this winter to the fall.
I need your warmth, your sensational energy
that tickles my soul.
I need all of this right now, you know?--I need my darling, my you.
Your eyes hold such strength I feed off of them
you make me beautiful you make me feel like
a women.
My life feels whole, my stars shine endlessly through my nights, my heart pounds harder with you on my mind, your passion is hard to come by.
My sweet luscious candy, my drug of choice,
my kind bud, my you.
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Yesterday & Today [Wednesday
March 20th, 2002 at 12:32pm]
Yeah we actually walked
Checked out lots of stuff in town
Watched the Professional
Changed for the evening
Went down south
Saw the movie again
This was the best
Drive home was good
The last couple of hours were cool
Lots of interesting pictures were taken too.
Reese's breast basketball.
Rolling the water bottle

Well got Jen up early so she could drive home.
I have to let her know now about Friday with JCM.
Maybe she'll come too.
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How... [Wednesday
March 20th, 2002 at 12:14pm]
Everything stopped.
This was the moment,
The moment I know whether all my longing,
All my journey had been in vain or no.
I stood silently.
Our eyes locked together.
My own filled with tears.
His face contorted in an instant of pain & longing.
A turbulent current of emotion seared me
As it rolled over
I thought somewhere deep inside.
I found myself moving forward into the power of his gaze.
I embraced the darkness willingly.
I wanted to touch him,
His face,
His hand.
I wanted to feel the flesh of him.
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To Tired [Wednesday
March 13th, 2002 at 10:10pm]
Reeally long day
Real long talk with mom, which has worn me out.
I have changed my plans for the evening.
Not even Grumpy Butt could drag me tired ass out.
Family won't let my step-dad relax & rest in hospital.
Not a very happy girl at the moment.
I just want Jen to hurry on up.
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Yesterday's News & Today's [Wednesday
March 13th, 2002 at 11:25am]
I am a wreck currently at 3:26 am on Wed the 13. My stepdad went into the hospital yesterday morning. He had another heart attact, I've lost track at how many it's been now. We had the ringer turned off. Melissa called at 1 & she said that some stuff went on. She told me that I needed to know what happened. My god & goddess my first thoughts were. Oh my god what happened to Aaron. Please dont let it be anything with Aaron. Now I cant sleep. My modemn is fucked at the moment & I cant write online. It just hit me how much it hurts. How much Ive been hurting theses past few weeks. I just looked at myself. My stomach is in knots, very large knots. I want to vomit up all of these negative emotions( they are not apart of me) You are not wanted in this head or body. Be gone on this body, you have no attourity over me. I want to sing. I want to scream. I want to shout out at the heavens, to anyone who will listen to me.

Running all kinds of him today.
Mom canceled her appointment, even though she told Gram's she was going
Matt told Melissa that he had fallen out of love with her. She's sick & they don't know what's wrong with her.
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Wow [Sunday
March 10th, 2002 at 11:13pm]
This is a wonderful feeling. I am such a gone gone girly.

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Mondays Forecast [Sunday
March 10th, 2002 at 11:13pm]
Your personal Forecast for 03-11-2002: This period may spark your competitive and assertive urges at work or in your personal life. You may feel driven to achieve your aims, hopes, and goals but must discipline your actions and thoughts to avoid making hasty moves that may result in failure or rejection from others at this time. You should use this time period to sort out various new ideas and plans before jumping the gun. You could also work on examining your activities from a new perspective to determine whether you have set clear and effective priorities. If you remain frustrated over your intentions and objectives, you may occasionally act or speak without forethought and could expose yourself to confrontations or heated debates with colleagues or acquaintances.
Special Message for you Today:
Finding clues in past lives..ENDING the Cause of your grief? How to de-program, recycle & jump start engine of ! life? Feeling unfulfilled, empty and meaningless? Meaning, truth, objective of LIFE? - 16

The human body had both male and female energy. The human conscience or mind developed its own creations and a whole world was created on the earth with its own civilizations and cultural roots. Mars impacted life and the body form started forgetting the existence of soul and began to recognize its material shape as the 'person' and forgot that it was the personification of soul. Thus the body form became the personality or identification and this is what we call ego now. Conscious Mind developed strong emotional base and it was expressed as different feelings like aggression, fieriness, love and compassion and the subconscious mind kept the spiritual roots memories like a basement storage.

Continuing the brief life story of soul on earth and origin of human, we very briefly reveal that the astral zodiac of 12 signs in reality contai! ns the entire history of humanity. We'll go into details another time but in few words, the very first sign Aries symbolizes the beginning of the cosmic evolution when the root inspired life energy on earth through Mars. Taurus age influenced by Venus manifested procreation, material body and beginning of consciousness. Gemini age enlightened by mercury created the duality and divided the androgynous body into female and male body. Likewise all other signs represent the evolutionary growth of human life. I will communicate on this and other secrets of universe later.

In Gemini age the difference between genders started. In next several million years, the androgynous Soul expressed and manifested itself as male with stronger emotions or as female with deeper emotions and the differences grew and thus male body grew as hardened, stronger and female body grew softer, gentler and the both represented the duality of the cosmic root. During the Age of Cancer the difference between! subconscious mind and matter grew and age of Leo gave creativity while age of Virgo expressed the female energy fully.

Continuing the evolution of soul's presence, earth suffered major accidents and upheavals. Its living structure was impacted by traveling galactic bodies and thus the solid land in the water body fractured and the shift brought the carving of continental land masses. The continents grew isolated. The play of civilizations became prominent and then the Jupiterian influence in Libra age created harmony, balance and new clusters of humanity grew. Human soul created an unending life cycle on Earth, manifested through humanity and thereon the chain of active creation contributed to the universal mind a memory bank where all human actions have been recorded
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So What... [Tuesday
March 5th, 2002 at 3:57pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

I cracked & called him first.
I just wanted to make sure that he didn't forget about tonight.
Of course someone else answered his cell.
Talk about stuff
I wanted to let him go because he was reading for his class.

Time goes by & I fall asleep
So I bust out the #
He ended up at a friend's place in their jazzacui with drinks.
So I said I guess that means I won't have to put on my shoes.
He did the whole song & dance
He wants me to go with him tonight. March 6
I told him that I was going their anyways.
I told him that he could so sign language to me in there.
I think I messed a lil to much with him.
He'll call me???

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Memories [Tuesday
March 5th, 2002 at 12:55pm]
I'm lost in the memories of you
& the things we said we'd always do
I'm lost in you
the memories we keep
have pushed me in too deep
& the things we said we'd never do
made me lost inside the memory of you
I'm forgotten inside your mind
& all the things we left behind
have been lost along the way
I couldn't ask much more than
for you to stay
I'm lost in the memory
of the day we met
& everything
got better yet
the words I said
play through my head
& I can't forget the
memory of you.
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Go Vote Today [Tuesday
March 5th, 2002 at 12:28pm]
Vote today.
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Mellow Outing [Tuesday
March 5th, 2002 at 1:00am]
Had fun with Talisha & Katie
Walked everywhere
No Daniel Ashe sorry Talisha
But hey we drank & met "interupt, abrubt."
Katie you must be having fun at the moment
This girl has to go shopping
Girls led the way.
He He :)
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Oh Really Team Sports, You Don't Say [Tuesday
March 5th, 2002 at 12:53am]
Your personal Forecast for 03-05-2002: You are eager to discuss your thoughts and plans with others at this time and you may have a very fruitful brainstorming session, a spirited debate, or a very active meeting with others in which things really get accomplished. You are verbally assertive and can present your own plan or idea quite convincingly. You may play a leadership role in a group or organization that you are affiliated with or take some initiative in a group situation. You are fired up about your ideals and can stir others to action. Team sports and group efforts of any kind appeal to you now.

Maitreya's Special Message for you Today:
Finding clues in past lives..ENDING the Cause of your grief? How to de-program, recycle & jump start engine of life? Feeling unfulfilled, empty and meaningless? Meaning, truth, objective of LIFE? - 12


In our journe! y of self awareness, after exploring our current life and making a balance sheet of our actions in this life, we found many answers to our questions. We found that we do have options either erase our grief by forgiving and stop blaming or to continue in bewilderment and self-destruction. Now we enter into another realm, another world the world on the other side, although there are no sides or dimensions but our little mind needs some form or believable ideas to understand what lies beyond our body. We need to find out the multiple reasons behind the questions like WHY ME, WHY THIS SUFFERING, WHY MUST I SUFFER or Why it all happens or happened to me and many other Why's, How and What If etc. To make you understand the realm of past lives and to extract 'strategic knowledge' from our past to fix our current life and lives to come, we must have some references and explanations.

We will have to go much deeper and unfold the mysteries of our lives to find out the true meaning o! f our current life and get to observe the whole cycle or at least part of cycle of our lives. This requires a sincere effort on your part to be honest, prepared and ready to understand this whole process. To initiate this whole episode of time travel, you must shed your fear based emotions [at least temporarily], extract and throw your acquired knowledge and man made ideas and identification labels you were stamped with your birth in this life. Try to erase your current superficial identity [at least temporarily] related to nationality, color of your skin, religious beliefs, age, ethnic groupings, languages, educational degrees, bookish knowledge and your million beliefs in this and that. You have to be with me without all these labels and badges. You have to be only YOUR SELF, as you truly are.

We must also forget the world created and conceived by us at least for some time. You have to be neutral, natural and real, unmasked and without any load of experiences. Once you can! get to that stage we will be able to comprehend certain things which thousands of masters, gurus, religions, books, literature, myths and other zillion marketers have been telling you since you are born. We will find out and try to understand the true nature of our real self and once we are aware of our wholesome global picture of our life cycle we will be able to appreciate and understand the meaning of this life. Once you do that you will be lightened, happier and never be depressed or sad.

You will live the life you live or want to live BUT yet you will not be the same as you WERE. There is no such thing as enlightenment or light that you can touch or smell or ACHIEVE as you can achieve a paper certification or degree. The only truth is total awareness. The awareness is opening up of your real inner eyes that will show you your true path and your self and once you recognize that you will be entering into a new realm of self realization or awareness that will open up a mo! re relaxed yet fulfilling life style. You will be YOU but not the same. You will evolve with a light year speed. For past messages Your Reflections on Life.. more..
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February 19th, 2002 at 4:25pm]

Victims are tied into you and stretched inch by agonizing inch, until they are either rent limb from limb or they confess. Or hey, maybe both. Not as bad as some people, someone tells you what you want to hear you'll feel better.

What torture would you be?
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February 19th, 2002 at 4:14pm]

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